We spend our lives trying not to be someone others want us to be, but in fact in trying not to be we actually are being someone we are not.
I am faced with this question as life takes a different turn into the next semester.
So many things to think about...
- I am a Christian girl - BUT am I?? I go to church often, i read a lesson at church once a month, i care for others, i try as best i can to help others, i don't do drugs and i don't mix with people that do.. So am I a Christian? I don't pray everyday, i don't have a quiet time. So that is apart of ME who i don't know about and have no answers.
- I have fallen inlove with someone that lives 9 513km away... How can that work...It can't. No one else seems to matter anymore. It is the strangest feeling. I think about him often.
- I love animals. I have a cat called Pepsi and i totally adore her. I have a dog called Jackie and she is my child. Without them i wouldn't be able to function.
- I have a passion for children. I am curently studying teaching and am loving it. Kids make me feel happy.
- Music is one of my favourite things, music can cure anything!
- I don't like wearing fancy or very fashionable clothes, i like tshirts and flip flops...But that doesn't mean i don't like dressing up when the time is right. I don't like make-up, I only wear mascara and sometimes base.
- I would love to live on a farm and wear wellies
- i like to be organised but plans can be flexible.
- family means the world to me.
- i have a desire to travel and see the world....But money let's me down.
- i am a sensitive person and words can heart me deeply
- i am good at hiding pan and hurt
- i enjoy mountain biking when i am fit
- i love swimming
- i have a condition called Poly-cystic ovary syndrome
- soft hearted...yip that's me..
- i love anything to do with biology - brains, hearts etc
- i would love to be a nurse
- yes i have a drink and am not ashamed of it BUT i do not abuse alcohol
I guess this sums up ME - a girl who is a luke warm Christian, who loves a man who is miles away, who has a passion for kids but also loves nursing, who can't fullfill desires. But i am a casual person.
Maybe i am ME but maybe i'm trying too hard to find ME, i don't know.
No one said life would be easy.
"Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game"
1 comment:
Wow, Rox, tough post. Lots of food for though here.
Want to know who I think you are?
I think you are beautiful, inside and out - but I don't think you always believe that.
I think you are incredibly brave, even though you often feel vulnerable
I think you are bubbly and vibrant, although I know that right now you feel sad and down
I think you are someone who is incredibly unlucky in love, but that doesn't mean it will always be that way
I think that oneday you will find someone who really appreciates the beautiful, special girl you are, but until then - please don't settle for second best.
I think you have so many layers to your character and sometimes that makes you feel confused
I think I am the luckiest mom in the world to have you in my life
I think you are my daughter, my confidant and my very best friend all rolled into one
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